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gift wrapped in a plastic bag.
my body goes underground.
my lungs which held my breath
my heart which pumped our blood.
these eyes that never
closed.

this mouth that took it all in.
these arms that held the stone
these hands that held on too long
these words that linger
this skin that stretched over
my bones
these legs that stood up for hours
these ears that always burned.
this is the instant, final replay
this is the revenge I take
on me.
this is my getting kicked off
my own team.
this sound of dirt falling on my own box
is the last sound i’ll ever
hear.
this sound is deafening
and i’ll hear it forever.